Christmas

Another time of the Christmas has arrived.
It's December and after a long time,I happened to crossed  your gate like i do the previous years.
There was no light this time.
I guess,it's because you're not here.
This Christmas reminds me of you and hope this would last for this one life.
I'm no longer an obsessive man.
I miss you more when you're gone for someone new.
I now felt guilty for being such an obsessive person in those years and decided to learned everything by myself. And this time,It won't break off easily,i promised.
Stay healthy and happy as always.

Song i wrote in 2015

"The Unspoken Goodbye"

“The Unspoken Goodbye”

by Mary Magdalene Rynjah

It started just like any other,

You and I, page after page-
One spring till the other winter;

Like birds freed from their wooden cages,
Soaring high for the clouds above.

The time passed by with no regrets-
You, I and the billion stars above;

And just as the cold winds blew by,
I stood there with this cold bitter loneliness.
I was no longer your beautiful DOVE.

Bitter sweet memories stayed cold as ice;

Leaving a bruised flower behind-
Never to be touched again,

Sweet delicate essence; a dangerous vice.

But now I see a clearer picture,
You wanted the stars;
And I, an ordinary creature.
With unspoken rhythm of doubts

And innocent gaze of displeasure-
You said your goodbyes

And walked farther away to find another.

Estrange

She gave me love a chance....
She said she'd follow me anywhere
but  her eyes,
Tell me she won't be there.
she said its time for me to give her friendship a chance.
I got to learn how to love without her.
I'm done sitting home without her.
I'm going class without her.
It is hard to love someone....
Who doesn't love me in return.
But sometimes it's the most beautiful feeling in the world,I would said that.
There's nothing like tha power of unrequited love.
Unlike other bonds.
It isn't shared.
It's mine and mine alone.
For a love like this I don't need her to love me.
There's no better love than that....
But if we Gamble in the name of love
Stake what you we
What to fear?
How wonderful if you win.
Even if you lose all is not lost.

Songs that i wrote in 2015

"Dreams"

DREAMS

I had a dream, a dream I had

Reaching high above the sky,

Where hopes are clear and blue

No thunder would flash upon,

No lightning would strike.

I had a dream, a dream I had

Of being free as a breeze

And open as a cloud

No rain would shower

No snow would fall

 I had a dream, a dream I had

Where foes become friends

And friends becomes family

No slaughter, no demise

No borders but one Earth.

A dream I had, I had a dream

With dissolve and Dissipate thoughts

As I wake up and realize

My dreams will be dreams,

Devise in my pillow

     -Pretty Marak

Jypsy man

Been wandering since last year, don't know what to do. All at last came up with a whole new level  to change the former shadow.
All i can do now is hearing that you exist and pray for your well being. I'm nothing important but a scumbag tryna figure out things that can't change. I'mma crazy boy with full idea of complexity. You're not a bad girl you're just a bad person. Just can't come and tell you everything I've been going on from the day we drifted apart.

I'm trying to find myself more on a coffee shop this days with lots of novel on my playbook and some songs on my play music. Well beer sometimes and juice too. Changes takes alot for me this time. Doesn't meant you don't but your ego is as bad as hell. You've mad the walls very high it will take a lifetime for me to climb.

All i wanna do is apologize for not being a good boyfriend for you. You deserves a way better than anyone. And reminder for you .I'll be here till my hair turns grey. There has been alot of difference between the old me and the new me. The old me die hard the new me rise hard and the future me is gonna be awesome.

Songs i wrote in 2015

I miss you

I miss you babe more than anyone..
Don't you forget things i told you years ago? I can't make things up for you on 23/05/2017.
You told me to do but I wasn't good enough to hit the pot. This doesn't meant I  don't love you,i do love you from all my heart that Everytime I hear your news bring misery to the night.
Stay healthy and happy as always. Blessing is all yours.

         Songs i wrote in 2015

Life droped

my life has been drop down to a level that I never expect it to be.
it is some kind of mental weakness that knock me out. don't really understand to take things up.
whether to hold back or to let just roll on.
pointless, useless,freak😥 My Elixir has gone never expect it to be.